A date with my Mom!

After so many years have passed, I finally got a chance to spend at least 5 days with my mom.

It was a little nerve-wracking since it was a long time since I used to go out with my mom shopping, My mom teaches at the same high school that I graduated from so I was constantly a specimen magnified 1000x all the time.

I was practically booked to be with her and it was a little uneasy since I am no longer a kid. I am not complaining though since being with my mom was one of the best things that happened to me this year.

I saw my mom grew stronger each year and I can really say that she grew old gracefully. Except for the fact that hearing was not one of her best talents. I had to kept on repeating myself a lot of times to get my point across her. It was tough but that was one of the cutest and hilarious part. My mom was so selfless to admit that she was indeed getting old.

We went to places she was curious about like Mall of Asia, Ocean Park and Trinoma. Of course we couldnt miss MEGAMALL. Since I havent planned things, we stumbled into this big event held at the Quirino Grandstand called ALIWAN where we saw different cities and municipalities across the country showing off their festivities with elaborate dances and costumes. Floats were outstanding too.

I didnt like the idea of going to Naic, Cavite becuase its too far and I dont have the patience to stay in a bus for an hour and get

to a remote place. Not that I hate the place but Im not much of a easy go getter when it comes to travelling. Yet, I was obliged to come with her.

With her are pictures of my sister and I am glad that my sister finally graduated from college. My sister was the spoiled brat and everyone loved her. I love her too but she can be a bit annoying. THen again, what can you do when youhave a sister who happens to be the only girl (aside from my mom) and the youngest of three. Here's another look of my sister.

I gotta go now guys. Just wanted to let everyone know that I am still in touch with my folks....

Life At the Beach.....

Me at the beach? Hmmm, I guess I'll have to think about it next time. However, despite the fact that I cannot enjoy the beach because I have fear of the deep (yes! I know how to swim!), the sun was at it's worst. I have no problems with getting tanned because im naturally tanned so tanning is out of the question. Ok! ill let you in on an idea of what it's like in the beach... GETTING BAKED!

I was with Lucille, better known as PCIL...just dont know why.... and her friend, KATHY. There was always this

excitement when taking a vacation. This is my second time in Galera and mind you the first time was bittersweet. This time there were no hangups and emotional baggages to go with me.

The trip was about to be spoiled when the boat stalled for an hour from the Batangas Pier. I was a little concerned about the amount of money we all had and getting to the island early would give us guarantee of a nice and cheap place. That wasnt the case which I hoped for...I still kept my fingers crossed.

The pic on the right will give you an idea of the place we stayed in. It was affordable at a price of Php 1,500.00. It was airconditioned and was enough for the three of us. Toilet did not have a flush but that was okay. It was totally fine. Who said we would need a toilet flush all the time. We were cowboys. By the way, don't place too much face sunblock because you'd look like a fag.....how funny.

All of the pictures I am about to post will be seen on my albums but then you would need authorization espcially if you're not on my contact list....not that I had to hide but then I'd like it that way...

Having a break with a bottle of pilsen (yes! I started loving pilsen) and the mango shape was a commodity no one can be left out with otherwise youll drain yourself of water.

Lucille was as cool as a cowgirl...I would even dedicate this blog for her. She was a total sport on everything. We just had this way of sharing everything. It didnt matter who was paying what as long as we sail through the expenses together. For that, I thank you very much. I was starting to be a bit annoyed with the idea of being in an island with less "dough". Pcil was just there to make me feel secured. I couldnt be thankful enough.

Let's continue with the adventure........

This was the penultimate at the beach. Here are some of the things you can do while in a bar having a shake or beer:

1. Check the crowd. Take out the uglies and spot the goodlooking people.

2. Rate them from a penny to a peso.

3. Get an agreement with your friends.

4. Start flirting (for singles). For those with partners, be careful hahahaha

5. If you get them (talk to no one, unless its a good catch hahahah).

6. Start fantasizing (let your minds wander).

We had fun and it was worth the view. We saw some flirts as well and we flirted and well I got mine...hahahahaha

It was time to go home and the disappointment didnt end even when it was time to leave.

This was the face of the sky and it was scary to the point that I was had a picture in my head like I was about to be drowned. The sides of the boat were covered in plastic to avoid rain from getting us wet and it was so tight that if the boat cap-sized, there was no way of escaping it. "Can you find any sharp objects that we could use in case of emergency? I asked lucilly and kathy. They shared my paranoia and yes! they tried to check their bags of any sharp stuff.

In the end, I made a fool of myself. Principle is, i'd rather die a fool, than being caught dead for not using my head.

This was the case inside the boat. It's full, overloaded with just one hot couple and the rest were just not a lovely sight to look at. We couldnt smoke because there were oldies beside us who abhored the smell of cigarettes. That's how worst it was. But then we all glowed with smiles on our faces because we made it. We were literally relieved that the whole trip was a mixture of emotions everyeone could ever imagine. In the end, we said "thank you" to everyone who made the trip awesome. I would not trade this trip for anything else. It was quite a ride. Thank you Lucille, Kathy, Pistacho and the cross and the Belgian biological engineer....hahahah that's another story PCIL would tell.

If you really want to enjoy the beach, go on a crash diet. Get some disciplin. Go to the extreme. Feel sexy. Having excess weight feeling sexy is well a good excuse but then sometimes it's nice to be admired.

I LOVE GALERA!

Dear Life

I am grateful for all the wonderful blessings. I am debt free and I am now more in control. I am single but not miserable. Im losing weight not because I wanna please everyone but I am crazy enough to admit that my insecurity ball is increasing each day that passes.

I love life and that life loves me.

I am outspoken....I am irrational but I am wise. I have good company and I am not alone.

I am grateful for each day makes me feel that I should not be worried getting old.

If this blog finds me by the age of 60.....kill me....life will no longer be fun by that time....yet again I am grateful......

Relationships Can Be "BackTracked"

What the heck is this statement all about?
As a start, I am back in the relationship stage. Starting all over again and hopefully this time Id be able to at least upgrade the "happiness" I get out of all these hooplas.
I was in a daze when I all the things I could expect to come before the year ends truly happened. I got all surprised when I had to at least backtrack with this person I dated 1 week ago that it was long overdue for the relationship to start. Then an agreement was sealed without me asking for it. Came as a sweet surprise indeed.
Forgive me if I am lost for words on what to write on. Im on a high. Yet again, the only thing I could hope for is a lasting relationship that would not bring me any uncertainties. I stop and think about it for a second and have to remind myself that I should not be idealistic. I had to slap myself and not overanalyze because it presents a danger. I am no longer the pessimist about relationship.
As a committment to myself, I will make sure this will work this time. I can see some potential hardship. Then its about two consenting people both in a "win-win" situation.
I know this will work.
My current inspiration: BUILT TO LAST (click on the link)

Ending the Year 2007

This must be one of th best years of my life. Let me count the reasons why I really enjoyed this year:

1. The year started with a pay increase of 42% last January for a good performance last 2006 2. GOt involved with someone last April and went to Puerto Galera for the first time. 3. Had two people working under me promoted and improved performances for other people were achieved. NOw, they are are happy too. 4. I was transferred to the evening shift where I've seen people improving once again on their performances. Sales rate peaked to almost 17% within two months from a bad 12% last September due to an incompetent manager. Now, everything is in place. Currently, sales rate is at 20.00% and it keeps getting better. December is definitely special for me and here are the reasons why: 1. I finally got my laptop. Its an ACER Aspire 5580 with Intel Core 2 Duo in it. 2. YOng was the best samaritan for this year for giving me a book about MS Access. He then sold two books for a discounted price. Amazing isnt it? 3. Jano was the first person who gave me a necklace my whole life. It is not the most expensive one you can find. As a matter of fact, the gold plate is starting to fade. Regardless of the price of quality, the thought really touched and moved me. 4. I met an interesting person. Gullible as Imay seem to be but this is starting to go the way where I want it to be. I'll hope for a brighter future. 5. I finally got someone to rent the 2nd room in my place. This has something to do with finances. To make it more interesting, this person was under the tutelage of my Mom way back in high school and my mom definitely remembered him. Now I wont have to worry about leaving some spare money because half of what I pay for my shelter has already been taken care of. 6. I found genuine friendships in the office. These people are those who understand that being human can be complicated due the uniqueness of ones personality. I may be blunt but thats just me. I can change it but people dumping you based on impressions are BS. Some of the drawbacks that shaped my life for 2007 1. Violating company policy is indeed a serious offense and being the bookish type of person when it comes to policies, I learned the best. I was given a Final Written Warning for it. No need to ask what policy I violated. Ill keep it to myself. 2. My anger and angst is getting serious that i am grateful for my company's initiative to help employees fix some minor personal problems and dilemmas. I get misunderstood because I cannot seem to just keep it low when it comes to my feelings and this is still one of my greatest AREA FOR IMPROVEMENT. 3. Going to Puerto Galera was not really a good idea. I went home with a "black eye" Funny me and my partner separated. 4. Motivation is self-induced. It should not be based on the temperature of the surroundings and the kind of people you are with. My performance got a little shaky in the middle of the year. I only had to blame myself for it. 5. Lost a friend. Not because this friend died but in the process of our friendship, that evil persona surfaced. I didnt want that in my backyard. Things to look forward for 2008 1. More savings 2. Better performance 3. Getting people promoted with improved and exemplary performance. 4. Have my room decorated and organized. 5. Be more efficient with work and deliverables. 6. No absences and tardiness. Not even once for the year 2008.

I take care of finances, you take care of the infrastructure!

Just a thought!
I am actually in the cafe located at greenbelt because there was an emergency. Not mine. Well its complicated I know and for some reason I have all the time and patience in the world to understand. Totally not me. Is it because of an anger and anxiety control procedures or is it something else?
Like what my shoutout says, I have a new lease on life. I am found (id like to believe thats the case) when I lost.

Some of the things I found out today:

1. Justin Henin won the women's singles (US Open) in which only my fellow sports lovers would only appreciate. I dont like her because she's psychotic but I guess she's all through those days when she had to fake fatigue to win. Oh well, shes the champ so kudos to her.

2. ****N is workaholic. I like the type of job this person does and if given the chance I would love to be a part of it. Very focused on work where i can draw a lot of ideas for my seemingly messy work situation. You kinda inspire me.

3. The internet cafe I am in today is expensive but id like to believe that I am doing this because I am not compelled to but because you wanted me to be around at least when were not together. That's something to always look forward to.

4. I am not as creative as my former friend Thed (Theresa! unique name but lunatic personality...unique indeed) but then I am as transparent as the cleanest wall glass you can find in a mall. I owe someone an apology for my hasty generalization. At some point, I was reminded not to be paranoid and to always understand people where they are coming from. Luckily, I was successful today in controlling my anger! You really have a way of calming me down huh!

Okay, my bill says I have to pay Php 61.00 and more if I dont log out now so I shall end this post.

Until then.....
Rickz

I wonder and I think......

After being silent for a couple of weeks, I am confronted with things to ponder. How does one react?
1. Why did a young sampaguita vendor dropped a sampaguita necklace inside a cab and said "Sa iyo na po ito...."
Really! I am touched. I dont usually succumb to emotional stuff but then the connection I had to the situation moved me. I was wondering if the kid got so fed up of me saying "NO, I dont need it" when he was offering me the flower necklace. The other thing I wondered about was maybe it was 9 PM and he had to go home and just forget about the idea that he never made a sale after all efforts have failed to wander the streets of Ortigas (he had lots of those necklace on his arm) 2. I know it's over but why do I come back to you? I tend to let go of things easily. Why do you keep on coming back? I prefer you to be pungent. I prefer you to be like a rotten piece of meat unattended. The more I like to think that we cannot materialize into something, the more I am drawn to you. The feeling is not gone. Your annoyance is like good news to me. Its like an incentive for not having someone around and then you're there always ready to go with the flow. I could only hope one day, your heart literally creates an airspace for me to fill some muscles. Then youll realize im important. I am not bitter. I just love you the way you are. 3. My blogspot finally has a comment on it.... I can only tell you one thing....Bridges were burned and destroyed becuase of two things (a) links need to be severed due to chaos, and (b) bridges need to be created to replace an old and damaged one. Let time figure it's cause. I'd like to have the latter coming and see how it works. 4. Cloudseeding......what the!!!! Is this the most desperate solution for the country's suffering against global warming? Would it help in a long run? I know I dont have to ask because it's none of my business. I really dont care but then I begin to keep on asking. Is this where all the people's taxes are being invested on when it can be used for something else? How many people died when our country suffered El Niño? The president likes to call it a project. Let's say she wants to be regarded as someone who can be sensitive enough on the needs of her people.Let me say this...."NICE TRY!!!" Finally, let me just say that I am currently undergoing counselling sessions. It's extremely helpful. I feel like I can be myself 100% without trying to put on a front. But hey! I am not into psychiatric conditioning okay. I think everyone needs a shrink sometimes. Not because of psychological disorders but for psychological conditioning where negative behaviours can be improved to help you succeed.