It's been weeks and probably the proudest thing I could say right now after speaking to the person I broke up with is that I composed myself too well to just let it all out....in short, I learned to be HONEST in a very awkward way...
It has been a year where lots of lies were made, lots of denials and betrayal experienced. Through it, I gained respect for myself and I taught myself a valuable lesson. I cannot be someone else's baggage nor would I allow someone to be mine (baggage I mean!).
Decision-making is such an easy task to some but probably may just be the most difficult for the rest. I'll include myself in the latter. It has been sometime that I refused to accept that something must be broken to have it fixed...yet, I kept on fixing what appears to be a stubborn mess. Now that I have finally made that decision, it hurts a while but becomes an avenue of reminder that we do need to do it.
It is not easy speaking to someone you spent most of your time day in and day out that you're dating someone. Im in limbo though as this dating is something I have not anticipated just right after getting out of a relationship. To some, your intention of getting out might just be viewed as rubbish....Could you stop your heart beating just because you broke up? I dont think so....
I call all the gods right now just let me and allow me to take each day as a blessing that I will meet wonderful people. People that may not necessarily be the one I would end up for a long period of time but someone I can dearly consider.
No where the hell am I? Still lost and needs to be found.....
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