It's funny that the past few days so little status being updated on Facebook and lots of things are actually happening. Each is like Facebook day in which the only difference was only a few people could see what's really happening.
I literally consumed all of my energy on the series of events that happened rather than spending my time scribbling a few words and phrases for the whole world to know. I love the attention but this sort of attention does not make things better, thus, you isolate yourself for a while and just surprise everyone. VOILA! You get an overwhelming response.
In my 31 years, never a day saw me resigning in a corner pondering on the various dilemma. Instead, I talk about it. Too much talk is just consuming me while the others see those stories as a play selling like hotcakes.
I am not going to make a litany of the things that happened this past few days. Instead, ill just put in mind that "too much of something is bad enough while too much of nothing is just as tough"
Too much right now is something I cannot fathom.
It's kinda addictive at some point. It both ruins and keeps me grounded at the same time.
Confusing? I am too...
Your thoughts?
Tuesday 30 March 2010
Tuesday 16 March 2010
So many questions.......the answers are few
I sit down today (2:35 AM, 16 March) pondering on so many questions.......I'm definitely on a roll and like any curious person, Id like to have the answers.....
why can't i get an seemingly simple and straightforward answers to my questions when I ask them politely?
why is it so hard to get through you when all i want is just to talk to you because I love you?
why is it so hard to take off those walls?
what must I do let you understand that I am with you and will be with you how long you want.....
what can be done to let us take the best of the both of us instead of the worst?
would you believe saying nasty things to you is just my frustration knocking through your heart to get you to listen?
do you believe that at this point of time no matter how frustrating it is, living without you would probably be unbearable?
It is just that I am too tired to vent out all my questions as the time dictates that I have to hit the sack.
Nevertheless, the questions I ask are nothing but questions. Probably, it doesn't matter whether Ill have them answered or not.
I just wished that it wasn't that hard as it was before.
I just wished that getting the answers were somewhat easy as staring into a magic crystal.
Wish you'd know that people get hurt.
Wish you'd understand that people do doubt and i am sure I do too....
In this crazy world, it is only the both of us who can give us the answers to shed light into whats causing this whole mess. I am not giving up for the same old reason that there is no reason why I have to. There are far more reasons for me to still give some more push......
why can't i get an seemingly simple and straightforward answers to my questions when I ask them politely?
why is it so hard to get through you when all i want is just to talk to you because I love you?
why is it so hard to take off those walls?
what must I do let you understand that I am with you and will be with you how long you want.....
what can be done to let us take the best of the both of us instead of the worst?
would you believe saying nasty things to you is just my frustration knocking through your heart to get you to listen?
do you believe that at this point of time no matter how frustrating it is, living without you would probably be unbearable?
It is just that I am too tired to vent out all my questions as the time dictates that I have to hit the sack.
Nevertheless, the questions I ask are nothing but questions. Probably, it doesn't matter whether Ill have them answered or not.
I just wished that it wasn't that hard as it was before.
I just wished that getting the answers were somewhat easy as staring into a magic crystal.
Wish you'd know that people get hurt.
Wish you'd understand that people do doubt and i am sure I do too....
In this crazy world, it is only the both of us who can give us the answers to shed light into whats causing this whole mess. I am not giving up for the same old reason that there is no reason why I have to. There are far more reasons for me to still give some more push......
Saturday 6 March 2010
Down But Never Out
The week was not forgiving at all.
Had been battling cough and colds for the longest time and it already signalled that I had to make this one visit to the doctor or I might regret everything.
Initial diagnosis was not really something I was grateful about as the doctor ruled out BRONCHITIS.To help you picture out what's the deal, I literally spit out thick pleghm which is not a good site at all. To make my description a little bit graphical, slight cough will not mean saliva being thrown out but phleghm...yes a thick one....
Then I had this mini coaching session with the doctor that my visit was long overdue....here are some lessons the doctor taught:
1. consultation with the doctor should be sought when cough and colds do not go away after 2-3 days
2. buying all the antibiotics being prescribed is stupid, get the first three days and if it does not have any positive effect, get back to the doctor and seek help again
3. going natural is no longer a wise decision these days. bacteria or viruses evolve. the more we nurture them inside our body, means we allow them to create strains and community of a whole-new weird sickness is on its way
4. lastly, HMO benefits should be used wisely....you pay for them so you take advantage when the need arises.....
Okay, I agree that these were good takeaways from that single visit I made. The lecture actually healed me instantly (emotionally I guess). From ntow on, I have a new perspective on my health, GET A DOCTOR WHEN YOU NEED ONE. When do you need one? Well, refer back to the 4 takeaways with the doctor.
The week was tough as me and my partner transitioned into something that is a little awkward. The term is OPEN. Yes! It was finally decided with provisions and all. Question is? How do we handle it. I guess the only way to find out is to test it.
Believe me, it may sound a little cheezy for some but it you are bound to act like this character for the zodiac sign LIBRA, balancing things like love and career is a daunting task. You can never have the best of both. Somewhat, one will have to get less attention than the other. Right now, its important that I make good out of my career. I get all these encouragements from my bosses, that I can make the most of my position if I only know exactlywhat I want. I vow to make things happen...
As for the other side of the balancing task, loving a person is not just like taking a spoonful of food that you spit it out if you don't want it. Sometimes, talking it out and lowering your pride could be the worst thing you'll ever do but it may be just the most efficient and useful tool you can rely on. Like I said before, it was awkward. Who said taking these changes are easy anyway.
Right now, I am getting back in shape. Got a clean bill of health from the doctor. I just need to reinforce more rest and get back to work with a much better perspective of things. It is important that we look back at things that cause our breakdown and learn from it.
I learned from the best.........
Had been battling cough and colds for the longest time and it already signalled that I had to make this one visit to the doctor or I might regret everything.
Initial diagnosis was not really something I was grateful about as the doctor ruled out BRONCHITIS.To help you picture out what's the deal, I literally spit out thick pleghm which is not a good site at all. To make my description a little bit graphical, slight cough will not mean saliva being thrown out but phleghm...yes a thick one....
Then I had this mini coaching session with the doctor that my visit was long overdue....here are some lessons the doctor taught:
1. consultation with the doctor should be sought when cough and colds do not go away after 2-3 days
2. buying all the antibiotics being prescribed is stupid, get the first three days and if it does not have any positive effect, get back to the doctor and seek help again
3. going natural is no longer a wise decision these days. bacteria or viruses evolve. the more we nurture them inside our body, means we allow them to create strains and community of a whole-new weird sickness is on its way
4. lastly, HMO benefits should be used wisely....you pay for them so you take advantage when the need arises.....
Okay, I agree that these were good takeaways from that single visit I made. The lecture actually healed me instantly (emotionally I guess). From ntow on, I have a new perspective on my health, GET A DOCTOR WHEN YOU NEED ONE. When do you need one? Well, refer back to the 4 takeaways with the doctor.
The week was tough as me and my partner transitioned into something that is a little awkward. The term is OPEN. Yes! It was finally decided with provisions and all. Question is? How do we handle it. I guess the only way to find out is to test it.
Believe me, it may sound a little cheezy for some but it you are bound to act like this character for the zodiac sign LIBRA, balancing things like love and career is a daunting task. You can never have the best of both. Somewhat, one will have to get less attention than the other. Right now, its important that I make good out of my career. I get all these encouragements from my bosses, that I can make the most of my position if I only know exactlywhat I want. I vow to make things happen...
As for the other side of the balancing task, loving a person is not just like taking a spoonful of food that you spit it out if you don't want it. Sometimes, talking it out and lowering your pride could be the worst thing you'll ever do but it may be just the most efficient and useful tool you can rely on. Like I said before, it was awkward. Who said taking these changes are easy anyway.
Right now, I am getting back in shape. Got a clean bill of health from the doctor. I just need to reinforce more rest and get back to work with a much better perspective of things. It is important that we look back at things that cause our breakdown and learn from it.
I learned from the best.........
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