I wonder and I think......

After being silent for a couple of weeks, I am confronted with things to ponder. How does one react?
1. Why did a young sampaguita vendor dropped a sampaguita necklace inside a cab and said "Sa iyo na po ito...."
Really! I am touched. I dont usually succumb to emotional stuff but then the connection I had to the situation moved me. I was wondering if the kid got so fed up of me saying "NO, I dont need it" when he was offering me the flower necklace. The other thing I wondered about was maybe it was 9 PM and he had to go home and just forget about the idea that he never made a sale after all efforts have failed to wander the streets of Ortigas (he had lots of those necklace on his arm) 2. I know it's over but why do I come back to you? I tend to let go of things easily. Why do you keep on coming back? I prefer you to be pungent. I prefer you to be like a rotten piece of meat unattended. The more I like to think that we cannot materialize into something, the more I am drawn to you. The feeling is not gone. Your annoyance is like good news to me. Its like an incentive for not having someone around and then you're there always ready to go with the flow. I could only hope one day, your heart literally creates an airspace for me to fill some muscles. Then youll realize im important. I am not bitter. I just love you the way you are. 3. My blogspot finally has a comment on it.... I can only tell you one thing....Bridges were burned and destroyed becuase of two things (a) links need to be severed due to chaos, and (b) bridges need to be created to replace an old and damaged one. Let time figure it's cause. I'd like to have the latter coming and see how it works. 4. Cloudseeding......what the!!!! Is this the most desperate solution for the country's suffering against global warming? Would it help in a long run? I know I dont have to ask because it's none of my business. I really dont care but then I begin to keep on asking. Is this where all the people's taxes are being invested on when it can be used for something else? How many people died when our country suffered El Niño? The president likes to call it a project. Let's say she wants to be regarded as someone who can be sensitive enough on the needs of her people.Let me say this...."NICE TRY!!!" Finally, let me just say that I am currently undergoing counselling sessions. It's extremely helpful. I feel like I can be myself 100% without trying to put on a front. But hey! I am not into psychiatric conditioning okay. I think everyone needs a shrink sometimes. Not because of psychological disorders but for psychological conditioning where negative behaviours can be improved to help you succeed.